This is me
If you want a happy ending, learn to open up, because no one can finish a story with a closed book.
— Nishan Panwar.
My name is Carolyn and you are very welcome here.
My daughter Faye, passed away on the 25th July 2004 – when she was just three and a half years old. She died from Pneumococcal Meningitis, after being poorly for just five days. Her death was sudden and tragic and I have grieved for her ever since … currently, it’s been 16 years of struggling to come to terms with loss.
In order to deal with my loss, I think it’s about time, I acknowledge what I have been through; face the fear and anger, the shame and the guilt and to organise and reorganise how I think and feel about it. I want to consider and share just how much I have learnt and how I am, on the whole, still standing and just about in one piece.
I am still learning – and I desperately hope to learn to be kinder to myself. Moreover, I hope that in helping me, I can help you.
Please, let’s take each other by the hand and go on this journey together. With Faye’s love and guidance, I’m sure we’ll be okay.